Lasting Friendship

I debated whether or not to blog about this, but I decided I need to because it's a big part of my life and heart.

Sunday, I said good-bye to one of the closest friends I've ever had (really, it's just "see you later,"
but since we don't know if we'll ever live in the same place again, it felt more like good-bye) .

And it's been harder than I thought. Well, maybe not harder than I thought, because I knew it would be hard, but I guess it's harder than any other time I've said good-bye to a close friend. Maybe it's the way Fiona and I just really are able to talk about anything. Maybe it's because her husband and mine were also close friends. Perhaps it's because we both were pregnant at the same time with our daughters and experienced a lot of firsts as mommys together. Really, it's a combination of all these things.

I also think it's because nothing else around me is changing. It's just that now I have a hole where a friendship I treasure dearly has changed.

Not to say that Fi and I won't continue to talk a ton-- Skype dates and texting will be abundant, I know. But it's just not the same as having our girls be able to grow up knowing each other or being able to drive 5 minutes down the road at a last-minute notice to hang out for hours.

I know that God brings certain people into our lives for seasons and that life is constantly changing. I know that we are here to be used as His vessels, where ever he may place us in life.

But it doesn't make it easier.

I know God will strengthen those other close friendships that I have here and that He will put even more wonderful ladies in my life.

But it's still hard.

Sorry that this is a fairly depressing post, I just felt the need to be completely honest and share my heart.

No matter the future, I'm thankful for the 3 years we had close to each other. I will treasure them forever.